Beachy Paradise Anyone?

pic from Michael Anderson

Do you ever just want to run away and hide?

Preferably on a beach somewhere, a place where there are no phone lines, no emails, no bills and absolutely nobody around you?

I am having one of those days, actually it's been a month of wanting that!

Don't get me wrong it has been interspersed with days where I am extremely happy and content. Those days I think are the ones at the weekend where I'm not worried about 'things'. They're the days I don't have a sense of guilt, a sense that:

a) I'm not working hard enough

b) I'm not nice enough

c) I'm not doing all that I can

d) I'm eating too much

e) I'm not fit enough
f) I need to hoover
**** ooohhh cycle of guilt how do I get rid of you?*****

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On a different note:

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I went to my friends engagement party over the weekend, why do women insist on telling you all the bad shit that goes on once you have given birth?

To all you Mums out there, please only depart with the positive stories, or be prepared stories...

Please don't tell pregnant women all the things that go wrong. It gives the sense of impending doom rather than joy!

Maybe I should have extracted myself from that conversation but, I'm far too polite ....

The party was lovely, it's great to see people so happy. There was dancing, cake, cheesy music and friends that I haven't seen in ages. They were very happy to see me and hugged and arrhed over me. It made me remember actually a lot of people like me and really the list above is a load of bollox and really I should be a happy bunny....

Now I better do some work before the guilt kicks in.

***New mantra for the week:

"I'm a happy bunny, happy, happy.... people like me.... I'm a good person"...